Record warmth for the end of the week.

I am completely worn out.

Tired. Tired. Tired.

But, I don't feel like sleeping.

This week has been the longest week ever and it's only Tuesday. I think it's because Spring Break was last week. I have to go back to school...to routines and homework and having to wear shoes.

Three things I'm really not a fan of.

My Spring Break was really great. I didn't go anywhere exotic or really exciting for that matter. I went shopping in Louisville with Rebecca, Lauren, and Alyssa one day. That was really special to me, I really love those girls.

Thursday of Spring Break some of us from the youth group rented a cabin at Patoka and stayed the night. It was raining, but we broke out the board games, made a huge dinner together, and watched the movies I brought (The Princess Bride and Big Fish--props to the boys for putting up with that.) The next day we went out to Tucker Lake and hiked and while some of us conquered the insanely huge hill....monsterous hill. Some of us (me and a few smart girls) took photos then walked up the stairs slowly.

I also tie-dyed, but you already read about that in the last post, aye?

I was also sick Sunday night/Monday of break, but even that wasn't that bad because I watched a million episodes of Ghost Whisperer...which is epic.

Tonight I went to group and I cried. I just wanted to put that because crying in public for personal matters (not movies, books, etc) is really hard for me. But, Gary made a really good point and I started to cry...so I left the room. And I want to publically acknowledge that it happened because it makes me feel a little bit more in touch with what really happened in my heart at that moment. Because I tend to take bad things and shove them aside and stick them into little sections of my mind. Each section of my life has compartments, and they use to never touch..but now the little pieces of my life seem to be falling together and mixing ever so slightly and it has my mind and my heart in a bit of disarray.

But, even when I do cry in public. Or cry not in public I refuse to give up the fact that God is in control even though it doesn't really feel like it at some moments.

And maybe this mix up of the compartments I've tried to hard to keep organized and seperate can lead to something big and great that I never could have planned.

That's Gretchen, her dad invented toaster streudel.

One of my most favorite things to do ever is tie-dye.

I mean, it's messy, it's colorful, and everything you make is completely different from everything else ever tie-dyed.

It's kind of like snowflakes, but bright colors and rocked by hippies.

I always have a plan for my tie-dye and I follow instructions and I try really hard to get my colors in the right place, and it never turns out how I planned it.

But, it always amazes me how it turns out.

I wonder if God is like that, you know? He prepares us and He puts everything in its place, but we unfurl ourselves into something a little different than He had planned, but good nonetheless. Something He delights in watching and admiring.

I don't know, I guess it depends on how much control you think God has...and I don't want to get into all that because it goes down the path into pre-destination. And, as much as I love to ponder things...no.

I do think that God blesses us with different talents and traits, but He gives us free reign on how we express them. I mean, there are so many artistic people, but the way they express themselves is different. There are so many painting styles, someone had to come up with each one. They didn't magically appear. God gave both Monet and Picasso artistic abilities, but look how different their painting styles are! Michaelangelo and Renior; every famous painter I can think of is different than another. But, they all paint.

Or dancers. I can't dance worth anything (although I like to think I can), but I don't have to be a good dancer to see how many different styles of dance there are. I watch So You Think You Can Dance. Two people can be amazing dancers, but one prefers ballet and the other crunk. (I just wanted to use the word crunk, let's be honest.) There's ballroom, jazz, alternative...the list goes on and on.

Does that make sense? I think I'm getting across what I'm thinking.

It's kind of amazing to think that I'm my own person within the talents God has blessed me with. It gives me room to grow and breath and serve God through my talents in a way that I am passionate about. Instead of giving someone a water color (I despise water color), I could spread God's love to someone with a charcoal.

It's a nice feeling, you know?

You freed me! You presented my master with a sock!

Ah, spring break.

You are my best friend.

Activities planned for this week are of the following:
-Sleep
-Sleep
-Sleep
-Watch Disney movies
-Bonfire
-Work
-Sleep
-Stay at a cabin at Patoka with the youth group
-Sleep
-Go see Shutter Island and The Crazies
-Sleep

Yes, that is the general plan for my spring break. Not the most exciting break in the world, but I don't really care all that much. Just as long as I can sleep a lot. I've got to say it one more time, the thought of it is just too wonderful: SLEEP!

Today is the Harry Potter movie marathon on ABC Family, so I'm going to curl up in bed and watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix (my second favorite of the series) instead of doing productive things like clean my insanely messy room.

Yesterday I went shopping in Louisville with Rebecca, Alyssa, and Lauren. We went to the Mall of St. Matthews and the other one that's farther on down the highway. Epic time I must say. I splurged a little and bought some gladiator sandals and a floral maxi-dress. I'm assuming that I will wear them so much that they will pretty much pay for themselves.

Today the cleaning lady is here and I guess she mopped the bathroom, so it was still wet. I walked in and practically did the splits. You know, everyone is good at something. Does my talent have to be falling down? Because I pretty much excel in the art of klutzery. Honestly.

Well, the Hogwarts School of Magic is calling me.

Farewell.

Let me tell you a story.

At five o' clock this morning I awaken to the sound of scratching and meowing on my bedroom door.

"Mold. Seriously." That was me, whisper yelling.

Not so effective.

"Mold. Come on!" Not so much whispering ten minutes later.

Still not effective.

"I'm going to murder you. For real." Fling my legs off the side of my bed and pull my sleepy body toward the door. Kick door lightly a few times. End up back in bed, but I don't remember the act of walking over to it.

Effective. Fall back asleep.

I wake up at 30 minutes after my alarm clock goes off and turn on my coffee maker which is conveniently located about two feet away from the foot of my bed. Open door and step in pile of clothes that resemble mine. I know because they are tye-die, plaid, and one has paint on it. Throw clothes back in room, wondering why they are in the hallway.

They were the clothes that were originally on the other side of the CLOSED door, about a foot away from the door. Mold had stuck her paw under the door (At least a foot into my room, how is this possible? It's a cat, not a member of the flipping Fantastic Four!). Mold had pulled the clothes under the door into the hallway and piled them all up there.

That was a very long, not so exciting story brought you by Melissa. Brought to you by viewers like you.

Thank you.

Grande Caffe Mocha with Soy Milk, No Whip

I wish I could just get up and go somewhere right now. Anywhere really.

I just feel like being in car with the windows down, driving someplace. I don't even care where as long as there are people that I love there.

For some reason (well a God reason) I feel like my heart is at peace. I feel like my body has been completely filled up with peace.

Like the feeling of my feet sinking into cool sand.

Or when you just got done sledding and you take a gulp of hot chocolate and your body heats up from the inside out.

I just feel good. I know God is in control of whatever is going to happen.

Is this the acceptance of the fact that He is in control, or that I don't have to be that makes me feel so content?

I sat on the hood of my car today, waiting for Gary to get to church and just looked at the stars.

And I knew that everything is okay and will be okay, wherever my life goes.

Wherever I end up. Or who I end up with.

I tend to fill up my life with what if's. What if's do nothing but take you nowhere. And I don't want to circle around in nowhere, I want to go where God wants me to. So I need to shoot down the little What-If Monsters that always plague my thoughts and I need to take ahold of the thought that God is good. And all is good, and by good I mean all that is going to happen and is happening I CAN HANDLE WITH HIM.

What if I can't do it?

Bam. You're dead silly question.

I can do anything.

Oh, the esophagus,

Turn on your oven to 200 degrees.

Put a large piece of foil on the rack of the oven.

Take a pie pan and lay a record on top of it and in the oven for about two or three minutes until it get a little droopy and melty.

Take the record out of the oven (with the pie pan under it still).

Quickly mush the record around the pie pan, or flip it over and squish the edges together until you have a bowl shape. (Make sure you have pot holders to do it with or you will burn your hands pretty well.)

Waaalaaaa you have a record bowl! Or a record that is not in it's original record shape, nonetheless amazing in its own unique way.

Get a group of friends, lots of records from a yard sale, make some pizza and cookies, and have one epic night of burnt fingertips and record molding.

That is what we did. Success.

Oh, and I want to give a big huge thank you to God for this insanely amazing, heartbreaking, make me want summer, lovely weather.

Okay, I'm gonna go watch Big Fish and fall asleep at the part when he goes to fix the house of the witch/girl that I don't really understand.

Dreaming is the way to go

One of the most empowering things ever is to drive with a pair of black high heels on your feet (pictured left).

I did that Saturday and I felt like I was in one of those action movies where the girl wears the impossible high heels and still manages to kick butt.

I mean, I didn't kick anyone's butt Saturday. . .but I'm sure I could have if the need had arisen.

I could have saved the day in my black high heels.

Except for the fact that they hurt and about ten minutes into the semi-formal I kicked them off so I could do the organized dances witout huge amounts of pain.

I don't do frivolous dancing due to the fact that I am an awful dancer. But, I mean bring on the organized, choreographed dances like the cha-cha slide and the rump shaker. . .

I just want to throw a shout-out to McDonald's sweet tea!

One thing I've noticed is the lack of passion and joy in people lately, especially in myself. I think it's the winter weather. . .lack of melatonin and all that jazz. So, I've been doing little things to beat back the winter sadness. Spring is so close! So close! And, I'm so incredibly ready to throw my coat in the closet until next year.

Melissa's List of Little Things to Make it a Happy Day:
1. Play "Walking on Sunshine" when you wake up
2. Wear brightly colored socks
3. Smile at yourself in the mirror when you brush your teeth
4. Watch Disney movies with friends and sing along loudly
5. Answer the phone, "Buddy the Elf, what's your favorite color?"
6. Think of ways to compliment people
7. Do the moonwalk down the hallway at school
8. Buy new, fresh smelling bodywash
9. Hug everyone
10. "May the God of hope fill you all with joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope." -Romans 15:13

Ring, ring! Hello?

Hey, this is non-sarcastic cynical cruel Melissa.

Normal me is back, woo!

Okay, now some non-pessimistic and uplifting thoughts on the weekend of awesome, or Winterfest.

A couple weeks ago I picked up the book Lies Young Women Believe for the second time. I wanted to dive deeper into the scripture it gives, rather than just reading it.

Anyway the book lists lies that Satan throws at us that BLIND us from the truth, such as: no one loves you, you are not good enough, you aren't pretty, etc.

Okay, get the tie in? Things we are blinded by? The theme of Winterfest was the Veil.

When I picked up the book I didn't know the theme of Winterfest yet.

Is this a major hint that I need to figure out what is blinding me from the truth about my life?

What things are keeping me from realizing what God really thinks, and how things really are?

Is it that I'm super distracted about my negative feelings toward J-Wall? Joke.

He does say some pretty good stuff sometimes. The sticky hand story is pretty good, I will admit.

Oh, and was anyone as confused as I was about David Skidmore? I can't believe there are two David Skidmores running around talking at youth rallies. It's pretty schweet. I like listening to both Skidmores.

Okay, over and out.

Stickey hand on the radio dials.

This past weekend was Winterfest, or as Curt Parsley said "J-Wall Fest" which cracks me up.

I mean, it's kind of true.

Hit fist to palm, spirit fingers out. It's the answer to all prewritten debate questions my friends.

Winterfest is an epic time. Where else can you get quality Jesus time, a ski lift, and a plethora of over priced food? Lets be honest. Even the roadtrips are fun, I love being with my youth group. They are the most loving and fun people ever.

The Veil was a good theme, you know. Caluptos? Insert hebrew here--I can't remember it. Columni?

I feel ultra sarcastic and cynical at this moment, although I can't think of why. Maybe I should write about Winterfest tomorrow when I'm not so sarcastic (because Winterfest really was an amazing time, I was so sad to leave).

I know that if I write about Winterfest right now I will just make snarky comments about the Walling, and that's not fair.

Peace be to you, J-Wall. Peace to you and your sweaters and your fat people jokes.

Really, too much sarcasm. Maybe I should delete this post.

Maybe not.

Really, bad Melissa.

"What do you do with them?"

I have consumed enough conversation hearts today to last me a lifetime.

Last night was party time at the Parsleys, which means ultimate Valentine's ever.

Tacos, french press coffee, and catchphrase.

Honestly, can it get any better?

I think not.

Well, Merry Day of all things romantic and lovely.

Guess what? Okay, I will tell you.

The girl in the photo is my best good friend.

Sorry, had to quote Forrest. . .he is just so quotable.

Favorite thing ever right now: laying in my bed with the electric heater and the plug in blanket under my sheets and You've Got Mail on my television.

Woah, what's up with all the Tom Hanks in this post?

Speaking of Tom Hanks, I hated him in elementary school when Castaway came out because I got so many Wilson/volleyball jokes done to me. Most of which involved me getting hit in the head with a volleyball.

Fail.

Supposedly we are going to get a major load of snow tonight. Which means, possibly no school tomorrow.

If there is no school I'm going to do laundry like it's nobody's business. I'm breaking out the bleach for the whites and the vacuum and I am going to clean like I just commited a murder.

I love having a clean and organized room, but I feel like it is constantly suspended in a state of untidiness.

Did you know I can whistle now?

The Nashville trip was pretty much amazing.

We got home at 3 in the morning Friday, though.

I was kind of grumpy and I didn't have any pants clean. . . I wore a skirt and thick tights to school.

I sat in Caroline's 19th Century European History class. The professor was pretty much epic, although the class was horribly boring. I still loved it though.

My favorite quote was about people from Luxemburg.
"Luxembugers. I've had all kinds of burgers, but I've never had a Luxemburger."

Yep, that pretty much sums up the class. Good stuff.

Sanctuary is the best part of Nashville trips, though. I mean, besides seeing Nikki, Luke, and Caroline. Sanctuary is one of my favorite worship sessions ever. And there's even instruments (gasp).

I don't know when I became a through-and-through Church of Christ girl, I think it was the summer before last. But, it definatly happened. Albeit, I'm quite a bit liberal overall in that Church of Christ thing.

I went to Starbucks with friends. Love. Love. Love.

Sleep now.

Please, please turn off the African tribal music, Melissa.

It's going to be another one of those Ace Hardware Sunday's and that's okay.

I set my alarm clock for 9:30, but woke up at 8:12.

Fail.

I bought a new bedspread yesterday, I had gotten the last one for my 12th birthday. So, I felt like it was time for an update. Maybe now I will actually feel motivated to make my bed.

I'm not gonna lie, it's kind of a manly bedspread. It's just a dark brown. It's really pretty, I just need some girly throw pillows to make it more feminine. I might sew some. That would be good.

Last night was Homecoming, Mitchell Homecoming is a big huge fail. Sadly my work shift wasn't until 10:45, so I had to stay until that long. So I hung in the back and talked with people. It wasn't really as bad as normal.

I've been having this awful craving for lazertag lately. I really just wanna zap someone good with a lazer gun.

Not that I'm good at lazertag, I'm really quite awful.

Hey guess what? Lipscomb roadtrip this Thursday!

Schnow Days and Sanctuary Music.

I had to prepare my self to open the blinds to my six windows this morning.

The ground is covered and snow and it's really sunny outside, thus it is very bright.

So, I opened each blind slowly and looked away.

It was like an explosion of white light in my room, and now that I'm used to the light, I love it.

Today is another one of those wretched, yet amazing snow days.

Wretched because Tony Bennett took away all of our snow day waivers which means it is possible that we could be going to school in July if it snows enough. Merr Tony Bennett really does frustrate me.

Amazing because it's a day off from high school. That's not a hard one to figure out.

I plan on cleaning today: laundry, vacuuming, and the sort. I like things to be clean and tidy and organized and lately I haven't had the time to keep things that way.

Of course this cleaning will have plenty of coffee interspursed throughout it, and maybe a little break to watch an episode of Dexter. Dexter is the creepiest show ever, I think that's why I love it.

Okay, another cup of coffee is calling to me. More like screaming. Loudly screaming.

We are going to censor the ship out of it.

I have consumed an abundance of hot chocolate today.

Recently I bought the Jim Henson Fantasy Collection from Amazon, this includes: Labyrinth, The Dark Crystal, and MirrorMask.

I had never seen MirrorMask before so I turned it on today and made a fortress out of blankets on my bed and watched it. I'm pretty sure that Jim Henson died before this was made, like maybe he died before they started working on it.

There were no puppets. Fail.

And, it was really just trippy. Trippy. Trippy. Trippy.

But, whatever. I enjoyed it, I suppose.

I made muffins for youth group just a minute ago, and I put them in plastic bags. Since the muffins were hot the plastic bags fogged up, so you can't really see the muffins anymore. You just have to trust that they are in there.

Do you remember the movie The Pagemaster? Because I most definatly found some Pagemaster valentines at work when we unloaded all the Valentine's stuff. I was super excited.

Oh, and thank you Callie-Ann for the Lion King on Broadway c.d. I'm really quite in love. No joke.